HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

It is halloween night and I am having fun handing out candy to trick-or-treaters! When we first moved here I got a call the day before halloween from Josh and he was like, is it halloween today because there are kids everywhere going trick or treating(downtown Buckeye where he works). We found out later that Buckeye has a tradition of trick or treating the night before Halloween and then the town puts on a huge Halloween Carnival. I think that is such a fun tradition, but it kind of sounds like it might be dying out because of all the new people, like us that have moved in over the past couple years, cause when J called me last night he said he didn't see hardly any kids out. That is kind of sad, and I think it is just because most of the people that have moved here, like us, just don't know about it. If I was still a kid I would be all about two days of halloween! Anyway, I didn't even decorate this year, because I am trying to get ready for moving, but I was looking through some photos and found a couple pics of the pumpkins we carved last year. That was so fun,ahhh...good memories!

This was Josh's...

This was mine...

Making Changes

I don't think I realized how hard it would be to make all these changes that we have to make now... even working, i didn't think it would be hard to stop working, I thought it would be great, and it is in many ways, but I feel like I have kind of lost a bit of my identity. Not that work was my life, but, well I guess it kind of was because that is what I spent the most of my day doing everyday was working. So now, I have all these things I want to get done, but there is so much that I just don't know where to start. I feel so displaced, especially now, not knowing what is in our future, I know we will have a roof over our head and I am so grateful to have family close by that love us enough to help us, but it is hard to work for something I can't see and can't comprehend right now.

Choices

So much for keeping an up to date record of our daily lives, I've never been able to keep a regular journal, but hopefully I can do better with this. I am so grateful for the families that we have, I don't know what I would do without them. They give us so much support and so much love and I am so so blessed to be able to call all of these wonderful people my family, our family. Josh and I are trying to make some big decisions and it has been so hard to know what the right thing to do is, but today has been a day of revelation I guess you could say, I think we have gotten an answer to our prayers to know what the right thing to do is and we feel so at peace with this decision. It is one that will help us and let us grow even more and change, hopefully, the rest of our lives. I have hope again and the peace I feel is what we have been waiting for for a very long time.

Just another day

This is my very first blog and I am so proud of myself, I set it up all by myself - which is a huge feat for me (computers and I have a hard time getting along) so Woohooo!!!! Josh and I went and looked at houses yesterday, but I don't think we found the right one yet, but I guess we still have time, it is just hard to make the change. But it is a change we have to make and we are hoping we can be smart and choose the right place for our family to call home. Things have been going so well since I stopped working. I feel so much better, I get the sleep that I need and I think before long we can maybe think about starting to have kids. A huge scary step for me but one that we are so close to being ready for. It will be a big change for us, we have gotten use to a lifestyle where it is just the two of us, but we are both ready for something more. Even though it means sacrifices we have to make, those sacrifices are mostly just things and in the end things are just things and they don't really matter.